I seriously miss talking to other chronics lately. Unfortunately it's not always for great reasons-- I've been feeling extra whiny lately, and now that I'm a sick person in a well person's world (as opposed to being a sick person in my own, private, sick-person world), it's sometimes even harder to explain that I don't feel well. Or just plain inappropriate. If I miss a day of work, it's kind of frowned upon to explain to coworkers how heroic it is that I'm here today. Everyone who needs to know, knows, and I sort of need to get my act together in order to be as healthy as I can be!
So, brief recap of the last several months:
January
Graduated from college! SUPER happy! Began job hunt. Had a terrible interviews, had some good interviews.
February
Had a couple of great interviews and, voila, a job offer! More super happy. And gratitude like crazy because, really, I expected to be looking for much, much longer, and it's great work.
March
Began job, began apartment-hunting, met lots of crazy potential roommates and finally found completely sane apartment-mate about a mile away from boyfriend. All good things... but all kind of stressful things too!
April
March finally catches up with me, and I get sick a good bit. I end up in the hospital with colitis, I go off my antibiotics, and I start looking for a new doctor. My body is not so good with the difference between good stress and bad stress-- hey body, don't you know we're happy? Dumb.
May
More of that, and now I'm looking for a doctor like crazy. Still happy at the job, but also scared of losing the job. Determined to get a hold of this illness before it gets a hold of me. Reading The Happiness Project and am convinced that I too can get my life under control with some planning, introspection, and elbow grease.
Which brings me to now, and brings me to maybe posting more or maybe starting a new blog. Something's got to give, and it's not just my health issues. I feel a need to sculpt my life a lot more purposefully now that I finally have that power back.
How do you enjoy your life more?
Congratulations on graduating! That's kind of a big deal. Even if you were to get too sick to work for a while, you've accomplished college. No one can take that away from you.
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ReplyDeleteWow, today must be my lucky day - I'm always way, way behind in reading blogs and happened to have a few minutes to browse just as your only update in months showed up! Yay!
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Wow, graduation AND a new job AND a move. That is all amazing! So, I'm guessing your Lyme treatments have helped you improve quite a bit from where you were a year ago, huh? Still waiting to see some of that in my son - he's been herxing badly so we hope that improvement is around the corner.
Maybe one of these databases can help you find a new doctor:
http://livewithcfs.blogspot.com/2011/01/finding-doctor-for-mecfs.html
I'm so happy for you!!
Sue
Sounds awesome. Congrats on the job and good luck on finding a doctor and balance. Even when you're relatively well, it's hard to find balance, so I wish you luck and peace and goodness! :-)
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